Well today was the big day for the MRI. That had to be the longest 20 minutes of my life. At first it wasn't too bad, but then, the longer it went on, the more nervous I became, plus the very pain that I was there to be seen for started acting up. I felt like I was in a coffin, so I had to close my eyes and just try to send my focus elsewhere. Not easy when that noise thrums along and the vibrations of it get up into your heart and soul and make you feel like the world has gone mad all around you. Now I await results and what the next step will be.
It's Friday night and that means that tomorrow is Saturday. I wish I would be seeing you, as was our normal state just about four months ago, but if you won't make it so, I can't make it so. So I will make the best of my Saturday by going to the barn and working on my equine massage course. I am also going out for another Saturday night on the town. Not exactly my comfort zone, but if I don't do things and fill up my days and nights and the long hours without you, I am sure I will go quite mad.
Today I counted 13 total Kia's, a number that we view as quite ominous in our Western minds, though I never really gave much thought to it as a bad thing. Perhaps I should have, after all 2013 saw the best horse I will ever know die, a good friend die and you leave me.
Well, I will bide you a good night and a wonderful weekend. My wish is constant, as the North Star, I want you back in my life for now and forever.
Sweet dreams,
MNP