Well, there is . . .the PORT-O-POTTY of DOOM! You took me camping along the C&O Canal for my birthday. That was such a huge thing for you to do because I know that camping wasn't really your thing all that much. I never laughed so hard about a port-o-potty in my life, but then I never laughed so long, so freely, so loudly or so much about anything in my life until I met you. You showed me that there could be humor in the simplest of things.
Somewhere between last night and this morning, I took some stock of where I am at. I still had moments today when the heartbreak I am feeling HUGE. The pain nearly suffocates me, but most of the day was pretty good. I am optimistic, after all. It wouldn't be like me to think dark thoughts all of the time. I have to be optimistic and driven to not get back to who I was, but to become a better version of myself. A new year is almost here, and I have a plan for this one, like I haven't had for a while. I am making changes, changes for the better. That's something to get exciting about. I would rather be sharing these moments, breakthroughs and success with you, Alexa, but perhaps this is the way it was meant to be. The next time that you and I meet in person, I will not be the same person you knew. I will still have the qualities that made you fall in love with me, but I am going to have shed much of the baggage I have been carrying. While I be perfect? Nope, no one can be, but I am not going to let these things that you have made me see, keep holding me back.
Here's to a Happy New Year for us both and everyone else in the world. I have a long way to go in showing you how good I can be, but that is only appropriate, after all, I am a Thursday's Child, having far to go is nothing new.
Be safe tonight if you are going out and enjoy the moments of the New Year celebration. I love and miss you.
With love and hope,
Miranda
PS: Do you want to get married?