Some may call them the Golden Arches, but there really isn't much golden about them unless you are one of the big-wigs in the McDonald's hierarchy. I used to eat at them but when you and I were dating we both came to the realization that it wasn't particularly healthy. I wonder if you are eating at them again. If so, take heart, you are never more than 115 miles from the twin tits of American Gluttony in the United States. A sickening thought to me.
I got one of your brief emails in reply to one I sent weeks ago. I didn't bother to reply and won't. I am not going to grovel after you anymore for love or friendship. While my heart is always with you, and you remain the only one I want to be with, I will not let you treat me poorly just because of that love. I have accepted that you went off in search of some greener pasture that didn't include me, somehow equating me with all the unhappiness in your life, but if you would truly be a friend to me, I would to you as well.
I saw you last week in your new car, a Mazda. Good for you. I am glad you were able to get a better, newer car that will serve you better as a reliable ride.
I need a new fiction book to read. I finished Mrs. Poe, the last fiction work I was reading and absolutely loved it. It was such a great read, so if you get the chance, you should definitely pick it up. I would send you my copy, but I doubt you would be happy to receive it. I am still working on the book on the stock market. That one takes more time and attention to be put to it, so I've had to re-check it out again for the third and final time and the library. I am also nearly done with the Motivational Manifesto book. It's been a good read for me at this point in my life and pushed me to work harder on what I want in life.
I went for a GI consult this week, as my gut issue - getting sick after eating and when lying down - ha not gotten better. They want me to get some bloodwork done, an abdominal ultra-sound and an upper GI tract endoscopy with possible biopsy for any abnormalities. I am really going to have to think about whether to do it or not due to money. With the deductible, all of this medical stuff is coming out of pocket. I am close to meeting that deductible, so it might make sense to just go for it. Any way I look at it though, I am going to be in debt for a while due to the medical issues of the year.
I wonder if you have gotten your dental surgery done. If so, I hope that went well for you and that you have had wonderful success after it.
In general, I wish you nothing but the best in life. I had more references to you, references I continue to try to ignore, but it can be hard.
My novel is coming along nicely. I am determined to finish it. I also have submitted more of my shorter work for consideration. I am tireless in my efforts on writing. I think I sleep only about 3-4 hours a day now. I am always doing something, whether work, reading, hiking, working with horses, writing articles, writing rants (smile) or writing creatively. Time is short in life. You have to decide what you want to fill those hours up with. I am doing everything pretty much I want to now except that I am not spending time with you anymore. That is the one thing that I would most want to do if I had any say in it.
Good night,
MNP
PS: you're the only one I will ever ask this to so: will you marry me?