I was reading random facts today to learn something new, and I came across stats suggesting the average person laugh somewhere around 10 times each and every day. Are you laughing that much these days? I know I have not been since you left, but today was one of those days that I don't think I laughed at much at all.
It seems the pain in my neck and the pain in my heart feed on one another. Both were off the charts today, and I woke up with a sore throat. All in all, not the happiest of days, but I was here in the present, alive and for that, I am thankful.
Tomorrow I will have another therapy appointment, and I do very much look forward to that. I need to work some on our fights. That's one of the things I've been working on between the last meeting -analyzing our few big fights to try to see . . . not how I can change them or change you, but how I can change my reactions in such stressful situation. It's all part of that neural network rebuilding, so that I can make better decisions in my relationships with others. I am dedicated to making these important changes.
I counted 28 Kia's today.
I really missed you today. I found my thoughts nearly always turning to you. I hope you have had a peaceful day and wish you a good night. I wish myself for another chance, another day in the future where I will get the chance to ask you to marry me.
Missing you,
MNP