I am trying hard to learn something new everyday. Today I learned about the origin of the word "lynching". I was surprised to find out that it has nothing to do with skin color and everything to do with horse thieving. I started reading the book I just go today called Bullets, Badges and Bridles. It's about the history of horse thieving in this country. In the 1700's two Virginians who had a role in working against horse thieving both had the last name of Lynch. Lynch laws were created, and sometimes the punishment was hanging, which came to be known as lynching. Odd no?
My neck has continued to be really bad, so this snowstorm better not keep me from getting to my appointment on Monday. I need to get things rolling for my surgery, so I can get relief and not, oh yeah, die.
I suspect the neck issue has contributed to my overall feelings of depression, fatigue and mood changes that started about 3 years ago, right in line with the last really bad episode of it started. I just hate like hell knowing this now and not then because it might have made some difference in our relationship. It's been one of those days where missing you was bad for me, too.
I did get an email from you, and for that I am thankful. I just miss the endless conversations we could have via text when we were apart or even the way we could say so much to one another in silence if we were together. As I sit her looking at a too big moon, I am struck by possibilities, and still can find hope in my heart. Some days it's so hard, but I have to keep the faith.
I went to the barn, but didn't do any equine massage work. I am in just too much pain to do that. It was nice though to sit quietly in the field and see who would come up to me. Of course, many of the usual suspects did, but Daemingo came to me, the first time ever. While he would let me come to him, he had never done that before. I was over the moon happy for that.
I also saw an eagle while driving on the way to the barn. It flew right over my car and I had to slow up so as not to hit it. It's weird because I had my dream that features the eagle prominently in it again just last night. It's a dream I've had with me since I was very small. I've been seeing a lot of eagles lately, and I cannot ignore that it must have some meaning.
I counted 35 total Kia's today, that's your age.
I really do miss you tonight. It's like the empty moon is reflecting the contents of my heart, the deep pain that is present ever since you left me. I wish it were not so. I wish you were here and I wish you would marry me.
Your always,
MNP