Yep, I am still right here. Haven't gone anywhere, and am still learning. For instance, do you know Napoleon's most humiliating defeat? Waterloo? Nope, not even close. In 1807, he was attacked by the very prey he set out to kill. What was it? Rabbits! That's right, your favorite animal defeated the most powerful man in Europe at the time. If you have the time you should read about it (http://mentalfloss.com/article/51364/time-napoleon-was-attacked-rabbits).
So where have I been . . . well, I had a busy week sandwiched between two problematic weeks. The first weeks since I last wrote to you was problematic because I got depressed about missing you. I have promised myself not to write to you in those situations. It does me no good.
Then I got busy with my little sister being in town. It was good to see her and spend time with her. I was happy to know that she is in a relationship with a wonderful guy. I hope the two of them have as much happiness as two people can, and if they are each other's true loves that it will last forever. She got good news this week that she won't have the spinal fusion surgery yet. Physical therapy will most likely give her relief, at least for now.
I've just been through another rough week for many issues, none really related to you, thankfully.
I am sad and always will be that you have elected to end things, but I am resigned to my fate more and more each day, though I do look forward to seeing you at the beginning of August. Perhaps you don't. Perhaps it will be the last time you elect to do anything with me. If you wish it to be so, I suppose it will be so. You were the only one it seems who got what they wanted when you broke things off.
I've counted many Kias, still get SPAM messages for them and you and still have references that point me to you. I take signs in my life seriously no matter what anyone else thinks. They are there for a reason.
Whatever you feel for me, whatever you think of me, no matter if you reject me for the rest of your life . . . I know that I will always love you. I will always want to marry you. For me no other l