Ah that quote above from the Bard, how true it is. I wish you could see that. While I know that I had my issues in the relationship, I still can't believe you said once that relationships shouldn't be such work. Any relationship takes loads and loads of work.
Today was one of those days where I spent much of it just focusing on my work. Work takes me away from my problems because if I don't focus on it, I can't get it done. It's actually a good thing when I have a day that I can stay very busy and focused on my work because it leaves less time and opportunity for the depression demon to steal into my soul. It tried today, but I managed to keep it at bay pretty admirably. My hard work is starting to pay off and my changes are becoming more and more who I really am.
I still have some anger to work though. Anger is a natural part of living, but I am working on ways to better manage my anger and to work through the things that make me angry, so they don't pile up into something more. I have to say thank you again - even though a small amount of that anger is directed at you for giving up and walking away - because you are the one who made these changes possible.
I love meditating. It really is helping me to, and bringing me to a greater state of awareness than I have previously had. If you aren't already doing it, it would probably be a great addition to your day.
Although I had not email from you today, I wasn't expecting you to write back so soon - that's not your pattern now - I felt the signs of you all around today. I had a Twitter suggestion of someone to follow, a gymnast named Alexandra, your name and a sport you were in as a youngster. I was checking out in lane 2 at the grocery story when an employee came to do a cash drop on the cash register. The employee doing the pull was named Alexa. I crossed paths with 23 total Kia's today an even found myself parked directly by one once - I didn't even realize it was a Kia until I got out.
No, The Bard was right all those years ago this path of true love is not smooth, but it is worth it, and I am not one to give up. Won't you marry me?
Single till I die if you won't have me,
MNP