I read today that the average person falls asleep in seven minutes. Who are these average people? I can tell you that it is very rare for me to fall asleep in 17 minutes. My mind races way too much, and it seems inevitable that many good ideas come in those moments just before sleep. That's why I have always wanted to have a wall right by my bed with the dry eraser paint, so I can just scribble whatever comes to mind.
I went to my counseling this afternoon - the first time in a long time, nearly a month now. Between her schedule, the normal schedule and then my car issues, this was the first opportunity. It was good to let everything that has happened between then and now spill out, including our get together. We talked some more about strategies I can use to overcome issues stemming all the way back to my childhood, some I've discovered on my own, others with her help. She said I have made great progress, that made me happy.
Probably sound like a broken record, but am afraid I'll be this way up until surgery and heck, depending on how bad the recovery is, for a bit after as well, but today was another pain filled day. I also had a really bad upset stomach this morning. It's hard to do much of anything when pain is ruling your life.
I counted 45 Kia's today. On the radio they were talking about the daffodils being in bloom, more reminders of your poem. You did just send me a text a short while ago with a suggestion of a yoga method to calm me before surgery. When I googled it, the site that came up was the #1 rated by Alexa.com.
I haven't written you back to thank you for that, but I do and I will thank you tomorrow. For tonight I must lie down and rest.
Will you marry me?
MNP