I took the day off today, to tend to some business and to spend time away from too much work prior to the MRI tomorrow. I know you would have loved to have been with me today, as I was riding a train for much of it.
As I rode along in the early morning hours on the train, I almost felt like I was in a different country, and some of that lingered as I rode on my way home. On the train, we see vestiges of our once proud past. It's not that I think all of our country's glory and best days are behind us, but I don't see us taking the kind of pride in our workmanship has we once did. Now, speed is king.
Riding along in these forgotten realms, you see true workmanship and artistry even in the most utilitarian of structures. And we used to build things that lasted. I see the structures with their grand gestures stretching forward from the early 1900's and still they stand with pride and strength. I guess you can call me nostalgic, but I think there is something to b said for that kind of care and pride. It extends to everything in our lives, too.
We have come to find it all too easy to throw things away rather than work to fix them. I know I wasn't perfect in our relationship, but I wanted to work on those things, work together to fix what was going wrong. You didn't. Relationships if they are to last do take work. I've come to know that more and more. Maybe true love, as I believe ours is, can never last in this modern mindset.
I counted 23 Kia's today, as I was making my travels.
Wish me luck tomorrow with the MRI. I hope to find some relief from that pain even if the pain in my heart will stay with me forever unless you would come back and say you would marry me.
Goodnight, sweet princess,
MNP