Ah how glorious it was today to feel the sun shining down and the temperatures warming up. I hope you took some time out of your day to get out of that office and into the world, to see the sunshine, to hear the birds telling stories about Spring and to feel the hope of it all in your heart. I did that on two walks, one to drop off my "redneck" mobile and the other to pick it up. It cost a bit more than I was expecting, but good to know that the rear differential won't lock-up on me, leaving me stranded somewhere. I will have to let go of the beast soon, but it will be bittersweet, for then I will have a car that you never rode in. We humans are silly things when thinking such thoughts, are we not?
I feel like I have made some wonderful new connections since you left me. It's one of those changes I've been writing about - changes that are making me a better person. One is a wonderful woman who is kind, caring and with a depth of heart that shines through in all she does. She is certainly the kind of friend that I would want on my side in my last stand against it all. I hope I can hang on to her friendship and have it grow more and more each day. Deep friendships like that are something I have allowed myself to have far too few of in this life.
The other came from a quite unexpected place. He had been an adversary of sorts of mine for a number of years. As he came to know me better by reading these posts, his feelings against me changed to some degree.
He even had the kindness to write a blog recently about the possibility of change in people and not to hold something against someone forever if they made that honest change. I was deeply moved that he would offer his friendship to me and give me a chance beyond what he had previously felt.
There are truly good people out there in the world, and we should all be smart enough to welcome them into our lives when they come into it and not toss them away, even when they make mistakes.
I saw 28 total Kia's today. My counting Kia game keeps my mind from obsessing too much. Of course, I guess it's just another obsession, no? But not all obsessions are bad for you, and I think you have pick your poison. This one keeps me from other obsessions that would do no one any good.
I reply to your email this afternoon, so now I will be waiting to see if and when you might reply. I pray that you will. My life without Alexa in it would not be a very worthwhile one. So while I wait for you to extend the next hand in friendship, I do hope that perhaps you will one day see the changed me along with all the aspects of the old me that made you fall in love with me to start with and that will be enough for us to be together again. If that should happen, would you marry me?
Waiting with new found patience,
MNP