This first letter is addressed merely to you. A nameless, faceless someone out there, who for whatever reason, has stumbled upon my blog. Let me tell you a bit about the situation.
For the past four years, I have been honored to have the love, affection and support of the most wonderful woman in the world, Alexa. I know, you are probably saying, but I know the most wonderful woman in the world, whether she be your wife, lover, sister, mother or just a close friend, but this is my blog and for me, Alexa is that woman.
I was not always the best partner I could be. Although we were rock solid for most of those years, there were problems that I foolish ignored, and though I was committed to being better for her, I was not committed enough. At the start of December of 2013, Alexa decided to leave me. To say that I am heartbroken is an understatement. I have never felt this deep sorrow or pain. The question is, what am I going to do about it?
I could drown in my misery and continue that way right up until an uneventful death. But that is not the fate I imagine for myself. I don't need to be anything special in the world, but I do wan to be special in her world. I am looking for that second chance, that I hope I will be able to get from Alexa.
To that end, I am going to therapy. I am starting to see the mistakes I made, and learning how I can be a better person. Thank you, Alexa. It shouldn't have taken you leaving me, but it likely was the only way to get through to me. I hope you give me that second chance some day. I waited 35 years for the woman I wanted in my life to come to, I can learn patience and wait as long as it takes for that second chance, even if it should only come on my death bed when I am old and grey. I will always love you.
So, reader, the rest of the letters will usually be ones written to Alexa, telling her of my progress where I am going and how I am growing.
Thank you for listening,
MNP