Well, after a two hour visit to the nerve doctor, I have another visit scheduled for Monday afternoon, this time with a neurosurgeon. From what the current nerve doctor could tell, the readings from the MRI are accurate, and unless the neurosurgeon disagrees, I will be going under the knife for the first time in my life. Myelomalacia is ALIVE in my neck! Oh, the horror, but soon it will be stopped. Hey, gotta have a sense of humor about things like this or you'll go plumb crazy.
It is disappointing because it will push back the completion of my equine massage course. I don't feel like I will do my best work for completing the videos until this neck issue is mended. So, I will be behind on that for a while. I still plan to go out and practice some, so my familiarity with everything will be good when the time comes.
I haven't been sleeping too well the past week because my neck's been in an uproar, so it's good timing to get this thing done and over. I feel really tired all the time. And that's my cue to wrap things up, so I can do my reading, meditation and get a nice bath before going to bed.
I counted 68 total Kia's today.
I hope you have had a great week and that I will have a few words from you soon. I miss you deeply. It's no longer the constant, ragged, searing pain of the recently broken-hearted. It has come to be the deep sense of knowing what you could have had that will never be that dogs me like a haunt, grabbing my being with full force when I least expect it.
Good night,
MNP
PS: Will you marry me?