Giraffes are amazing. They are animals that I have always been fascinated by with their long necks, spotted bodies and intelligent eyes. I got to feed them as a baby at a zoo. Times have certainly changed. Did you know that they are silent not because they can't make sound, but that they chose not to make noise? I wonder why they are silent. I mean, I get that they are a prey animal and that not making noise can help in that way, but most species also use noise to avoid being eaten, too.
It's been nearly a month again since you answered one of my emails, and I did email you back. I guess you have decided not to be my friend even from a distance. That is your loss because I have been a friend to you since the breakup. I have not harassed you, have not insisted you come back to me since I got over the initial shock of losing you and have delved into my writing, horses and my art.
I picked up a gig writing articles now. The first one didn't pan out. After nearly a week of trying to get in touch with the artist, he emailed me to tell me he had received my previous messages and calls, but that he was too busy to do the interview and would pass. I can't imagine any artist giving up free press, but oh well, on to the next. I am now reaching to a musician to do a story. Hopefully, he will be more responsive and interested. Sadly, the county and city do not seem interested in my other endeavors. I have heard nothing more on The Little Free Library for the city. I will followup next week and if there is nothing more, then I will reach out to other communities that might prove more interested. Additionally, the grants non-profit is not coming together. I leave messages, but no one ever gets back with me. The people of this area have forgotten how to live and love. More than ever, I know that I do not belong here.
I am offering my photography skills to help take pictures of foster children to help find them homes. They may also want me to do some writing for them, so that will be another good deed.
I went to see El Galeon last weekend. What a freaking cool ship! I would love to go out to sea on it and sale around the world. Some people are fascinated by yachts and speed boats, but give me a good sailing vessel and plenty of wind.
I was reading a book and came across the name of Alexandra David-Neel and I had SPAM messages not only with your name, but oddly there was one that said optima pearl in the subject line. You know why that is more than a little strange. On 9/25, I counted 47 Kia's, 9/26: 3, 9/27: 83, 9/28: 79, 9,29: 33, 9/30: 4, 10/1: 12, 10/2: 16 and 35 today. I still believe in signs, as you undoubtedly see.
I miss you, Alexa, that is true and will always be, but as you can tell, I have also moved on from you. If you were to come back to me now, I would only take you back if you could prove that you were willing to make changes, too. You gave up on us. I never will. I only know love for you and always will.
With a loving heart,
MNP
Will you marry me?