As we get closer to the MRI date, I am getting a bit more nervous about it. While I am happy that it may well bring relief, I am nervous about the procedure itself and about what may come after. I guess I am human after all (smile).
Today I went to my physical therapy appointment in the evening, and while it helps for about an hour or so after it, the pain comes rushing back, and I am back very quickly to a painful situation, with the loss of feeling in my right arm and hand. Getting old isn't for sissies, that saying goes, and it really is ringing true.
I've also noticed so many more white hairs on my head since you left me. They literally were a result of the stress of the breakup. I recall seeing the first white hair about 4 years ago now, I was with you and couldn't believe the outrage of that lone white hair. I won't dye my hair though. I am not that vain, and I will wear my white as a badge to show how far I have come in life.
I won't take any Xanax tonight, as I have to be up for an important appointment tomorrow, and I can't afford to miss it or be groggy. I wonder if it will be hard to sleep now, after two nights of taking it. We shall see, I guess.
I saw 17 total Kia's today. Today got very bad for a while with missing you. It's such a crushing feeling when it comes, and can be almost impossible to fend off. I did ok, and am now over that moment, thankfully, but know that nothing has changed in my feelings for you. You are still the one I want to marry or I'll marry not at all.
Wish me some luck,
MNP