I notice that quite a few of you have checked out my little blog over this weekend. I am truly honored that you would think to take time from you pursuits to check out my writing.
I don't know if you have had a chance to read my introductory letter, but as a slight recap . . . I met the love of my life in 2009. I am not sure she remembers the details of the day, but I do. They replay in my mind like one of those old home movies, crackly and grainy, but the emotion is true. All my memories with her play in this way. Instantly, my heart was hers. I knew that quickly that I had met someone like no other that I had met before for she was my soulmate.
I couldn't say a word to her about it thought because though her eyes captivated me, and when I looked into her soul, I knew I was coming home, she was interviewing with me for a job. I could have opted not to hire her, but she was the best candidate for the job. She had the intelligence, perseverance and adaptability to make her a perfect fit. If she didn't feel it that day, she must have felt it eventually because it was she, not me who pursued the relationship.
Four wonderful years is what we had together. I say wonderful because for me, they always were. I don't care about the fights we had from time to time. Those are to be expected, and they quickly faded from my mind. I guess for her they didn't. In November 2013, she told me she was not happy and did not want to continue with our relationship. I have struggled daily since that day to deal with the pain of it all. I am not perfect, but each day I find ways to be a better person, to be one that perhaps she will notice. I know that she is already close to dating another if not already, but I will never give up on my Princess, the one truelove I will ever know.
It doesn't mean I stalk her. If she never comes back to me, well I would rather live alone then, but I will not stop writing my "letters" to her and each night I will throw my question out into the universe in the hopes that she will hear it and feel like giving an answer: Alexa, will you marry me?
If you like my page, I hope you will continue to read it, share and most of all interact with it. Please leave comments. Tell me about your experiences, feel free to give me advice, call me a sentimental fool, anything you like.
Always love,
MNP