I am totally ready for the new Johnny Cash album to come out. Today they released the full version of "She Used to Love Me A Lot". It had that old school 1980's Cash feel (when it was recorded) and boy did it remind me in many ways of you and I. Of course, I always kind of felt like we had a Johnny and June kind of love. No violence, but boy can we fight sometimes. I guess June never stopped loving Johnny and vice versa for either of them to leave the other. I guess you did get to that point. It's a shame because us when we are good is better than any love I've ever seen.
I had physical therapy today. Finally seem to have gone to someone who cares to get to the bottom of the issue and really treat it. I have almost no grip strength. I knew I was having problems now, but I guess this ongoing problem has only gotten worse and I have a nerve dying. Got to get to the bottom of this or there's no knowing where it might lead. I can't ride now, that's a real bummer. Can't even carry anything more than the weight of 1/2 gallon of milk in my right hand. Can you believe that?! Me doing so little?! I know over the past year or so it has affected my mood. It's hard to be upbeat and happy when you are in extreme pain and the other issues that are involved. I hope this will help in my metamorphosis to a better person. I may never hatch a butterfly, but I know I can be better than I am.
I only saw ten Kia's today - number 10, the last one, looked just like yours, but you weren't in it and it wasn't yours. I knew that my the plate, before I even had to look at the two women in it. I wish it had been you. I can't believe that I haven't seen you in nearly two months, and that I don't have daily texts from you. Does this seem normal to you? Does this seem right? Does this seem like the way you want to spend the rest of your life?
Well, I must do my exercises for the final time and get ready to sleep with the new neck support. Either I am going to get better and get you back or I am going to fall apart and then it won't matter much. In any case, I wish you would say that you'll come back and marry me.
I miss sleeping by your side,
MNP